October 4th 2007 - Learning to start the day off without a cigarette is turning out to be easier then I thought - thanks to Chantix... Its 11:oo am and I just took my first pill of the day. I have not had a cigarette yet and I am trying to take it to the next level... I am actually drinking coffee while writing this blog.... yesterday I felt that I needed to stay away from it as it is my biggest stimuli for smoking in the morning... but today I am try to prove to myself that I can still enjoy a cup of joe without holding a cigarette in my other hand.... well... thats exactly why I am here now...while drinking the coffee... ITS FREAKING HARD! I want a cigarette... I have them sitting right beside me.... so I figured I would use this time to blog and hold off with smoking as long as I can... Yesterday went smoothly with only 5 cigarettes TOTAL.....YEAH BABY!

But what makes it easy the past few days is knowing that I will have one later in the day to reward myself for the good work! Just thinking about the fact that Q-Day is right around the corner is frightening.... I mean once its done...ITS DONE! And those thoughts of "I will have a smoke later to reward myself" shouldnt be there.... and thats scares me! But on the other hand my progress has been Amazing! I dont know if many Chantix users had such progress the first few weeks as I have, but I hope that the magic pill only gets better becauase as I mentioned in my first blog..."the process of Quitting" is the easy part its "Taking that Last and final Step" and "Sticking To It" which is the hard part. And as I approach that Q-Day thoughts of Marlboro Lights Dancing in my head pop into my imagination... (P.S. - Play on words... Im not going nuts - so dont call the suicide squad just yet) The thought of standing outside huffin and puffin that cigarette gives me a tingly sensation inside... but then I smack myself in the head and remind myself as to why I decided to quit and tell myself I WILL BE SUCCESSFUL!

Great things come to those that ....want it bad enough!